It’s Saturday again; another weekend has arrived; time for “my lazy day”. I cal it “lazy day” because it’s a day free from pre-scheduled tasks; no appointments. I just do things that I feel like doing. No schedules, no commitment; it’s my free day allotted for my personal whims. My “lazy day” started about three years ago. However, there are certain rules that I set up for myself. How I spend, the whole day depends on my assessment on how I fared for the week. First thing to do upon waking up, is to have a “no holds barged, honest to goodness” evaluation about my life for the week, an assessment of its “highs” and “lows” in terms of character, performance at work, how I dealt with pressure, my motivations and reasons, how I related to people, and spiritual matters. If I honestly believe that I did great or, even with a “not so bad” level in over-all standing, I’ll gonna treat myself to nice stuff, something that I really love… On the other hand, I failed; there would be a certain restriction and sanction. The “activity” had helped me, “think outside the box”, to be my own critic, and to do it squarely and fair.
At this particular weekend, I woke up late. I look around my flat and saw the clutters and disarrays that would put my mind in a chaotic state at my regular days… It looked like I did not tidy up for a few days…! This is so unnatural for me. I asked myself what was wrong. It is time to deal with it.
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As I was staring vacantly at the ceiling and not feeling the desire to get out of bed yet, a sudden realization dawned to me. Sometimes, we see the litters and clutters in our lives but instead of immediately tidying up and fixing our inner stuff, we tend to look at the other direction to avoid a “sore eyes”. Maybe, some of us think that by ignoring these clutters and litters, we would not be bothered. Some would simply ignore its existence. Others would consider fixing things right away. Some would decide to postpone fixing things because they are feeling lazy, or having something else to attend to, especially if they think that it would not create a major catastrophe if these “litters and clutters” would not be immediately addressed.
However, if we let the days pass on without us taking care of these litters ad clutters right away, the threatening truth would be that; we may grow familiar with it and just let it be there forever, like a permanent fixture in our homes. These clutters would become “add-ons” in our lives that would distort the beauty within us. It will become a stain to tarnish the purity of our being. If worse comes to worst, a day will come that even we could not recognize the outcome; the person we had become. We would not have that sense of peace if we knew that there are matters that had been left out hanging even just for a while when we could have dealt with it right away. The sad fact is that, it is the result of our very own neglect and fears, the outcome of not loving our own self enough. I realized then, that we have to deal with things that come into our lives proactively. “Dirt” will not stop threatening to invade our lives if we are not careful enough.
On the other hand, there is what we call “clean clutters”. These things are really harmless and okay to ignore for a while. For me, these would be enough reminders that life is not perfect. We simply are humans who should not stop growing in any sense. Besides, life is too short for us to spend it trying to make up for our faults and undo our mistakes… the more reason why we must not ignore anything that is “out of place” in our lives, either internal or external. We do not know when we would leave this world of the living. We might not have enough time to make amends, to rebuild burned bridges, and to create more loop of love and connection in the web of humanity.
With this note, I immediately cleared my sleepy head and whispered a prayer of thanks to God for the “lesson of the day” that He whispered to me during that short moment of silence. I got out of bed and went over to start and catch up with my day of cleaning and fixing, with a large cup of coffee at hand, 
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Leofina Jane
